After Thoughts (Personal Log 01)
Posted on Monday February 3rd, 2020 @ 1:15am by Lieutenant Commander Neteri "Ikran" Shannon
"Computer Open personal log, Neteri "Ikran" Shannon"
"Log open, ready to record...."
"These last few weeks have taken their toll on me. With Pavens death, the investigation, and its final out come have been hard to accept.
I know what I saw and I know what I heard and what I felt and there is nothing in this universe gonna tell me differently. He had absolutely no idea that his drive plasma was contaminated. I watched him as he worked on his fighter and we kidded about how thorough he was.
I think I remember Paven best the day we just sat in the hanger deck alone and just reminiced about academy days and flight training. Oh we talked for hours *laughing* on different flight formations and how we trained. I think we sat there until 0130 the next day. We just enjoyed each others company but I could sense that he was beginning to get deeper in his feelings for me. The mpre time we spent together, the more I felt in my heart for him. It was like I suddenly wasn't alone any more. I had someone who had feelings for me and I for him. I drew strength from him the more I was with him the safer I felt. He...gave me the strength to bury deep agonizing memories of the horrors I saw and went through during the war. I thought I had finally got a handle on the terror until...I saw his fighter explode and then the lock came off and no matter how much I tried, the flood gates burst. *walks to the replicator* Earl grey hot......*the tea appears and she takes it and sits on her couch* I don't know how much my sessions with Commander Kana will be able to shed some light on what happened but I am willing to try. *stretching out on the couch* I think I will take a nap before I go on duty."
"End Personal log"